The End

It seems like yesterday a day would never end

It seems like yesterday that life just began

It seems like yesterday life had no end

But today sickness has kicked in

Yes yesterday your facing what seems like the end

The children don’t call and hurts within

People use you when all you need is a friend

Sometimes you think of the end

Sometimes loneliness is your best friend

You question why you’re here and start to bend

Life seems lost and has moved as fast as the wind

You want to love but it rips and buns like fire within

Life has moved way too fast and you’ve lost some of your best friends

You wonder why you have lived to see the end

My funeral: The Do's and Dont's

Don’t wear black, but wear colorful colors, because I was a colorful person
Don't miss me, so get to know me now
Don't regret being left behind, continue doing the good I’ve done
Don't be sad I will miss the sun; it forever will glow in memory
Don't think I will forget you, because you’re unforgettable
Don't travel to me, I will travel to you
Don't worry an era has ended, for one has begun
Don't worry you will miss me, I am not forgettable
It's not a sad day, but a happy one for my energy will be everywhere
Don't think of it as death, but as a passage
Don't send flowers, contribute to a charity
Don't go to your corner and cry, hug and laugh
Don't think you will miss me, for soon you will join me
Don't worry about the cremation, I never liked the cold
Don't worry, it's all planned
My funeral

Dedicated to someone I never knew but think of often, Daniel!
Dr Q

Born with a self destructive button! A will to survive!

I never question the Creators reasons for doing things the way they are. After all those who follow or read my blog, see my appreciation for beauty and creativity in general.

But lately and especially on this Memorial Day I wonder why as we age we don't grow a self destructive button. Yes, something we could push and go to sleep and move on to the next place that absorbs our energy!

Ok those who believe in the bible will say that we were never meant to die and suffering is a result of sin. Ok, I will give them that thought. So when  the creator (not God because its associated as a male and it is neither male or female) forced then out of the garden of Eden he could of made a self destructive button that would grow in time and something you could use to move on!

Hey there are many ways we can leave this earth! Unfortunately a few friends of mine have decided this pattern! But in my 50's there are times I could push such a button! Then I am reminded of why I should not! Well there is My Love Robert, The roses I enjoy looking at and taking pictures of in my garden! There are the drag queens that make me laugh like last night! There is such beauty in both male and female that pleases my sight!

So maybe there is a reason why such button does not exist! Because if it did I or we may have missed everything I just said. And though at times I wish for such a button, I am reminded daily of why that if it existed we are meant to enjoy every moment while here!

Look around and no matter what your suffering and let the beauty of creation move you to appreciate every second you live!

I dedicate this to my sister! She may never read it, but I see her struggle to survive every week with cancer and I have never heard her complain! In this tearful morning I say thanks sis for making sure I don't push that button just yet!

You’re Bro
Dr Q

A chat with my sister!

The other day after a very verbal emotional weekend discussion, my sister stopped by as we discussed her cancer and compared it to mine. Well I was floored at what my sister said. For over a year I have been lead to believe that my sister had a miracle and that her cancer was in reversal. Mine is no longer detected thought there are always current issues one deals with. Besides we are here to chat about my discussion with my sister.

My sister and I have always been close! Yes there are religious differences and the Gay issue has always been a challenge for her! But I know she loves me and Rob and we leave it at that.

As my sister and I chatted she tells me her cancer has spread to organs and basically all over her body! It's being maintained but there is no reversal! I looked at my sister totally different from that moment on! I will still give her an argument to remind her she is still living, but every time I see her I wonder if it's my last.

My sister loved dressing up as a girl and still does as women. Not having hair is something that bothers her more than losing her breasts to cancer a number of years ago. I write this with tears for I can't imagine life without my sister! I wish we could trade places! She is loving, patient, caring and what I call an angel on earth!

My sister always cares more about others and me than she does about herself. Every Friday she gets treatment to keep another week going and as she told me someday and no-one knows that day, she may be told just enjoy whets left. I honestly can tell you she won't tell us, though we will all know!

My sister will never read this, but in this world of emotions, down deep my sister knows, she is a part of me that can and never will be replaced!

For those lucky to have a sister like mine, treasure them for one day the treasure will be buried and gone!

You’re Bro!

Dr Q

A chat with my sister

A goverment shutdown-You asked for it!

Do you realize when the government shuts down it pays its people back to the day it shut down! So let's see they shut down the government, millions of government workers stay home and go shoe shopping and when the battle is over these workers, who did nothing, get their pay retroactive to that day!

I JUST LOVE GOVERMENT! I supported it for the last 10 years of my career. I needed it to live now being disabled and realizing that my check along with others may not arrive next month angers me. So many areas of government are out of control, that it should shut down and begin brand new with private contracts monitored by government workers who are qualified to monitor.

We are the best democratic nation, but there is little to be liked about how it works just be dealing with Medicaid. It is so out of control, lacking common sense with unqualified staff that one can only get something done properly if escalated to management. It's like the first line of defense should all be fired.

So shut it down and create it from scratch with a profit in mind and not a burden on tax payers. It's an idea, amazes me why this idea is not implemented!

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