When death comes knocking!

Though I live very close to my mother, for some reason I tend to see her once a week. More often when my sister is here. My sister though dealing with terminal cancer is the joy of the family!

She is my inspiration, she is my love, she is my sister! The same goes for my mother, I never could imagine life without either of them. But I know soon death will come knocking! We all do but we don't talk about it, we talk about the good things in life! We have shrimp and cocktail and enjoy a warm fall or winter day! In Tampa Bay the locals love the fall and winter. It's when we go out and do BBQ's, swim and relax with family.

My sister comes back next month from Boston where she gets treatments for the summer! I long for her return! This time she comes when death may be knocking at my door. I have major surgery on Oct 18 and something is wrong with my right leg so I foresee another back surgery! There is no guarantees and honestly I asked the doctor (seriously) could he just move me along a little faster. Of course he became serious and "no-one dies on my watch" If only doctors could just speed things along!

You see some people keeps the doors shut holding death back! I actually wish many times, I would just fall asleep! Don't get me wrong I don't want to suffer! But that is the point I suffer everyday!

I see young people move their bodies in a way I wish I could. I watch them dance the way I once did! I watch the beauty of a young body and get sad I can barely move mine! Aging is no picnic but aging with pain is no buffet!

I sometimes think the creator allowed us to age to laugh at ourselves! The things people have to do while we age! Superior beings have to be laughing their asses off! I think we are their entertainment!

Kathy Griffin in a skid said she had to pack her ass crack due to the sweat! Been there done that for a diffeent reason! You have doctors probing every part of you're body, that you're no longer embarrassed, You have my dad who no longer knows where to sit, what door to open just exists!

You're children have grown and they rarely call! They have their life's! You're friends are too busy to care, they have their life's! You're immediate family have their pains and aches and thereby in their own world. Those you know that are healthy are happily enjoying life! I do live for my love Rob!

Nevertheless I for one when "death comes knocking". happily say, come in!

Dr. Q