Thursday, December 29, 2011

Pay up Mr. Warren Buffett

Warren Buffett owns GEIGO through Berkshire Hathaway, Mr Buffett you're a respected man so why don't you're companies like GEIGO pay out on large claims and make it miserable for consumers like me who for years never had an accident!

GEIGO lets you suffer and holds 250k

I had a great policy with GEIGO 250k. It's 4 years later and I am still fighting with my lawyer to get PIP payouts for medical, loss of work, living assistance etc. They use every trick in the book including very old doctors that no longer practice for IME's to avoid payout.

GEIGO is a despicable company that charges the most for insurance and takes every possible step not to pay it's claims. This has been going on for 4 years! The accident was 100% the other drives fault according to GEIGO investigation. They change adjusters constantly to confuse the customer (me) and the lawyer.

What they don;t realize is they fight and thought it left me disabled I fight back ever day too.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Love the sinner, Hate sin!



This is a statement I heard a number of years ago from a co-worker of mine who worked for the FAA and was Baptist! This statement was made because of me being gay and you love a gay person but hate the sin of gay sex!

Jehovah's Witnesses have recently accepted the same standing on this subject. They still because of ignorance associate being gay to being an alcoholic, a born evil person with a desire to kill etc. Never mind that science proves otherwise they insist the Bible says so!

So lets quickly review the Bible without prejudice! Lot slept with his daughters supposedly because they though they were the last human survivors to procreate. Solomon had 1000 wife's, I guess to procreate though the main reason was he wanted to! Sodom and Gomorrah was destroyed not because of gay people , BUT BECAUSE LOT COULD NOT FIND ONE GOOD HUMAN! Jesus never mentioned anything about not loving gay people and/or the act of homosexuality!

I get the point that man should not lay down with man because they could not procreate (though woman could lay down with woman)! But technology today is what the technology then and today gay men can procreate! I know lots of gay men who have had children from a willing woman , their mother!

Hate the sinner, but not the sin is like "don't ask, don't tell"! It's like when blacks were not allowed in JW's hall's (they don't call them churches)! It's like when they were against organized religion just to become one!

With time they changed and I am happy having a JW family that at least know I can be loved by them. My sexual behavior should be no-ones business as is not if you're a heterosexual, bisexual or no-sexual, as we all become as we age. To use ignorance and thereby keep people from finding love and being happy and supporting heterosexuality with a divorce rate of 60% (gay divorce rate is heading that way) is ignorant.

What they or religion don't talk about is that homosexuality exists in the animal kingdom and even the plant kingdom! It would make sense to stop population growth it would become prevalent in the human kingdom.

Maybe that is why Jesus never mentioned since he knew that was not an issue. Just like embracing a prostitute was not an issue! It's LOVE after all, that he stressed was needed and would show his people to be different!

Dr Q

Friday, December 23, 2011

God forbid you need them, stay away from these Lawyers!

These lawyers are takers. There must be good lawyers out there, but these are not them.

They use the worm hook approach!

They make you feel like they care, get you're money and then disappear.

Stay away from these horrible despicable lawyers!




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Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Born with a self destructive button!

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Born with a self destructive button!: There are good days but those bad days you ask, why were we not born with a self destructive button! Is this all a joke with the Various Go...

Born with a self destructive button!


Born with a self destructive button!


There are good days but those bad days you ask, why were we not born with a self destructive button! Is this all a joke with the Various God's (male/female neither exist) laughing at out misery and pain?

My day consists on living without a purpose, living in pain, living for the day chosen to move on.. But why? Why not just have a button that allows you to move on? Why do we need to tie exhaust extensions to our cars to fall asleep and move on? Why do we need to blow our heads off or take additional humans to move on? Why do we need to suffer and make those around us suffer too when a button could just make it so much easier?

A few years ago I was hit by a Drunk/Drugs Speeding driver. I am sure his joy ride did not have the intention of ending my life as I knew it. I rarely sleep! I have gained like 60 lbs, I can barely walk, I have nightmares (everyone is dead or dying around me! I keep Rob up at night working on my right leg, or giving me medication! I am fucking bored at doing nothing when my life was traveling the world! And etc.

My life now consists of the following:

Lawyers; Dealing with lawyers who in my option have no interest in yore pain, suffering or even justice! You're a case number and when they get to it, they get to it. Never mind it costs to go to a doctor, a hospital and even a ride to the store because I don’t drive. In my opinion they are waiting for you to die so the settlement becomes easier and they still get their cut!

Doctors; I have one or two that care, but the medical services needed here in Tampa Bay can't compare to Miami! There it was yes we know what you have we can fix it. Here it's we can guess and if we can't tell well wait till it falls off or turns black and we need to cut it off. Best of all would be if you died we could close you're case!

Hospitals: Like I have said lately to Morton Plant Mease BOD, it's a hit and miss! You can have a shift from heaven with nurses that care and take extremely good care of you or ones that want to push you along! It seems to be the case wherever you go or whom you meet from lawyers, doctors and hospitals. YOU"RE A BURDEN. You're not looked at as a customer or patient, but a burden!

Family; After a while family (except for my Rob) just moves on! Yes there is one or two who actually call and care. But everyone seems to be facing some type of major illness some terminal! There is no time for Joe! And honestly I don’t like the sympathy call. You're children who one thinks should be there for you are too busy making their own careers and with their friends. One forgets how important parents are. Some are lucky their children care!

Partner; My partner was the Creators way to prepare me for what they could foresee coming. We can't but it's in the cards and I am happy and honestly live for him!

Pain; There are no words defining my bad days! YES, there are good days! I wake up sing and at times feel nothing as it that February 14 2008 day never happened. Then a wrong twist or standing from the chair or a walk with the dog and it's all down hill from there. Being in Tampa Bay where prescriptions are the drug of choice it takes an act of a GOD to get some medication to relieve the pain for a few hours. Yes, they are trying to help an epidemic with our children and causing hell for us all!

Forgiving: I don't forgive that bastard and his friends who killed my life and soul on February, 14 2008!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: The Loss of a Genius! See You Soon!

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: The Loss of a Genius! See You Soon!: I woke up this morning feeling just a little different! Even though all the same aliments still effect me yesterday a little of me was lost!...

The Loss of a Genius! See You Soon!

I woke up this morning feeling just a little different! Even though all the same aliments still effect me yesterday a little of me was lost! I never met Steve Job's or Bill Gates but indirectly I was very involved in supporting their genius efforts.

My teams tested one of their first computers as I was part of the team that invented the Modem! I tested his software and from the inset it was obvious the kid was a genius. I am not going to talk allot about what he di and what he achieved since it's all out there and the technology everywhere! I believe every human today in one way or another was impacted by Steve Jobs!

My sister is facing terminal cancer. I deal with the thought of loosing her everyday! But it reminds us that we are not immortal! It reminds us to appreciate every moment of life! To appreciate those around us who love us or even those that don't!

You knew Steve was dealing with health issues, but never once did I hear him complain! I am sure as my sister knows his time was limited but he pressed on with unimaginable product releases!

Being just 3 years younger than Steve and dealing with my own health challenges you wonder when you're time is up! But like the genius we lost we keep fighting and moving forward and enjoy life and maybe like him we leave a footprint that impacts someone's life!

See you soon!

Dr. Q

Saturday, October 1, 2011

When death comes knocking!

Though I live very close to my mother, for some reason I tend to see her once a week. More often when my sister is here. My sister though dealing with terminal cancer is the joy of the family!

She is my inspiration, she is my love, she is my sister! The same goes for my mother, I never could imagine life without either of them. But I know soon death will come knocking! We all do but we don't talk about it, we talk about the good things in life! We have shrimp and cocktail and enjoy a warm fall or winter day! In Tampa Bay the locals love the fall and winter. It's when we go out and do BBQ's, swim and relax with family.

My sister comes back next month from Boston where she gets treatments for the summer! I long for her return! This time she comes when death may be knocking at my door. I have major surgery on Oct 18 and something is wrong with my right leg so I foresee another back surgery! There is no guarantees and honestly I asked the doctor (seriously) could he just move me along a little faster. Of course he became serious and "no-one dies on my watch" If only doctors could just speed things along!

You see some people keeps the doors shut holding death back! I actually wish many times, I would just fall asleep! Don't get me wrong I don't want to suffer! But that is the point I suffer everyday!

I see young people move their bodies in a way I wish I could. I watch them dance the way I once did! I watch the beauty of a young body and get sad I can barely move mine! Aging is no picnic but aging with pain is no buffet!

I sometimes think the creator allowed us to age to laugh at ourselves! The things people have to do while we age! Superior beings have to be laughing their asses off! I think we are their entertainment!

Kathy Griffin in a skid said she had to pack her ass crack due to the sweat! Been there done that for a diffeent reason! You have doctors probing every part of you're body, that you're no longer embarrassed, You have my dad who no longer knows where to sit, what door to open just exists!

You're children have grown and they rarely call! They have their life's! You're friends are too busy to care, they have their life's! You're immediate family have their pains and aches and thereby in their own world. Those you know that are healthy are happily enjoying life! I do live for my love Rob!

Nevertheless I for one when "death comes knocking". happily say, come in!

Dr. Q

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Do loved ones bid farewell from beyond the grave?

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Do loved ones bid farewell from beyond the grave?: Sometimes you just sense the presence of someone close to you, and it seemingly comes out of nowhere. Nina De Santo was about to close h...

Do loved ones bid farewell from beyond the grave?

Sometimes you just sense the presence of someone close to you, and it seemingly comes out of nowhere.



Nina De Santo was about to close her New Jersey hair salon one winter's night when she saw him standing outside the shop's glass front door.
It was Michael. He was a soft-spoken customer who'd been going through a brutal patch in his life. His wife had divorced him after having an affair with his stepbrother, and he had lost custody of his boy and girl in the ensuing battle.
He was emotionally shattered, but De Santo had tried to help. She'd listened to his problems, given him pep talks, taken him out for drinks.
When De Santo opened the door that Saturday night, Michael was smiling.
"Nina, I can't stay long," he said, pausing in the doorway. "I just wanted to stop by and say thank you for everything."
They chatted a bit more before Michael left and De Santo went home. On Sunday she received a strange call from a salon employee. Michael's body had been found the previous morning -- at least nine hours before she talked to him at her shop. He had committed suicide.
If Michael was dead, who, or what, did she talk to that night?
"It was very bizarre," she said of the 2001 encounter. "I went through a period of disbelief. How can you tell someone that you saw this man, solid as ever, walk in and talk to you, but he's dead?"
Today, De Santo has a name for what happened that night: "crisis apparition." She stumbled onto the term while reading about paranormal activities after the incident. According to paranormal investigators, a crisis apparition is the spirit of a recently deceased person who visits someone they had a close emotional connection with, usually to say goodbye.
As they chatted face to face in the doorway of her shop, De Santo said they never touched, never even shook hands. But she didn't remember anything unusual about him -- no disembodied voice, no translucent body, no "I see dead people" vibe as in the movie "The Sixth Sense."
"I'm in a really good place now," she recalled him saying.
There were, however, two odd details she noticed at the time but couldn't put together until later, she said.
When she first opened the door to greet Michael, she said she felt an unsettling chill. Then she noticed his face -- it was grayish and pale.
And when she held the door open for him, he refused to come in. He just chatted before finally saying, "Thanks again, Nina."
Michael then smiled at her, turned and walked away into the winter's night.
The energy never leaves the earth!
Dr. Q

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: The day life changed, the day I died! (part 2)

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: The day life changed, the day I died! (part 2): This bog is with the assistance of Robert who watched me die and come back a different man on Feb 14, 2008! Part 2 One never forgets w...

The day life changed, the day I died! (part 2)


This bog is with the assistance of Robert who watched me die and come back a different man on Feb 14, 2008!

Part 2

One never forgets when something happens like it did to me on February, 14 2008!After my body started changing and after many tests and treatment with my jaw especially, we never got to complete the cervical spine issues, in May 27 2009 a lady speeding through an intersection in Coral Gables on her phone slammed into the other side of my car. It was a few thousand dollars from totaling the car!

However that accident added to the many health issues I was dealing with! Sitting in bed a few days after that accident my toes would not move! I had no pain on my lower back or legs but things like toes and legs stopped working! I could no longer stand and at times if it were not for leaning on a wall or Rob I would collapse. A cane became my best friend! I have one in every corner of my house and in each car!

After a number of doctors and treatments, i was rushed to the hospital because my lower spine had collapsed! I now have four bolts that to support my lower back and keep the spine from pinching my sciatic nerves which was causing my legs to die.

Well when I said I had no back pain, this was before surgery! I have never been the same since then! I live in constant pain from head to toe every day of my life. Being allergic to most pan medication,s I have limited ability to assist me with the pain except to lay down in a fetal position at times and cry allot.

Traveling in a car is a major issue! I always suffer for days with muscle spasms even after having a second back surgery to address this problem! Now I am back to the beginning with a new neurologist to see what else can be done. We never can get back to my upper health challenges because walking is key to mobility so we try to fix the bottom of the body before we can again address the top!

As I type this my fingers hurt, my neck is i pain, but the back does not act up until I try to stand up from the chair. 

This is nothing to what my sister is dealing with! She has cancer treatments every week and either the treatment or her body will eventually kill her. I am not facing that dilemma, but like her I am in pain every day! The only difference is mine could of been avoided if people did not drive DUI or on their cell phones speeding because they are late taking their kid to school!In addition after your health starts deteriorating after surgery there were prostate problems still unresolved, then I had a heart condition that needed hospitalization and now a possible bl;ladder issue needing a pacemaker!


I was taking 26 pills a day which I personally reduced to 16 because my liver was starting to being a problem! What happened in February, 14 2008 changed my life forever! That young man was arrested and walked away with a scratch in his head. His car was derivable! But my live and those around me changed forever. A DUI driver not only effects the one he/she injures they effect everyone in that individuals circle!

I most of the time wished that when I died that day in February 2008 for a few seconds that I stay dead! Dealing with all these health issues, needing constant assistance, being a burden to those you love is extremely depressing at times. Having to stop working was very difficult! I have been working since I was 11! Being restricted to my home 24x7 most of the time is very depressing and I could go on!

So though my life changed that day, I try to focus on why I did not! Hopefully there is a master plan and though I may never now why it just was not my turn to die but it was my turn to experience pain for the rest of my life! I now live day to day and at times hour to hour!


But I still love every minute of life's beauty and it's people even under the circumstances! I think I appreciate a butterfly, a rose, a kind person more than before that day that changed my life and for a few seconds I died!

Dr Q

Monday, September 19, 2011

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The day life changed, the day I died!

This bog is with the assistance of Robert who watched me die and come back a different man on Feb 14, 2008!

Part 1

It was Feb 14 at app. around 11:30 pm as we arrived in Providence RI to do what has come to be a tradition in our circle and that is the midnight shot welcoming in the new birthday year. As a surprise I had all our local New England friends meeting at a local establishment for the midnight as Rob started his last year in his 30's number 39!

I was the driver he was resting for it was his night. Maybe my guardian angel knew I could of taken the impact that was about to happen and that the love of my life could not. I rarely drove before that day and less since! I turned the car to park and I awoke on Rob's lap, being asked if I was OK! I missed the entire accident and to this day it's emotional just talking about it. For a moment or two I died and came back as someone else! The car was totaled and if you saw it, you wonder how I walked out of the car! It was not my day but what was to come would be more devastating to me than death itself!

Sometimes when you have a major auto accident and you bleed the body releases the pressure and in some cases it causes less internal damage. I did not have a scar except for a huge bump on my head as the frame of the car hit my head at app. 45 mph and pushed me into Rob's lap. My shoulder ached and my right knew was bruised the next day from the steering wheel. I had just experienced head trauma and a concussion!

As we have sen in recent years people die from light head trauma (internal bleeding), but as I said it was not my time! It wa though a day for me to experience life as I would never would of imagined. Why I was kept here is beyond me, but as my friend Trebor told me recently, maybe it's for writing blogs such as these! When I can I bog about what touches me, what moves me, what relates to me and what I have passion for!

He was a young man with his new red Mustang I believe! He was out in town with all his friends but unforgettably UDI! I don't know if it was alcohol or weed or maybe even more! I just remember two things are the impact! People asking are you OK, and a young man running from inside the shinning red vehicle that changed my life forever running to the side of the building!

We were there to pick up our grandson! You see we have Micah one week a year and I don;t care what I had to suffer with I treasure my grandson and that week. So I refused the offer to go to the hospital headed to the hotel room and picked up Micah the next day and headed back to Jersey! Rob stayed up all night making sure I did not die and still drove back home. The creator gave me an angel on May 11, 199 @ 130 and that was Robert!

I was actually ok until the welling started to go down and the body adjusted to the impact days later! I started to get major headaches that would penetrate through my cervical spine that still continue today! I started to forget people, places and things! I had what they call total short term memory loss for app 8 months! I would get lost gong to work or coming home! I would forget people I just met hours ago, I lost my job! My memory eventually rewired itself or it would of been a permanent disability. However it has never been the same. Sometimes I awake and don't know who Rob is still today! Sometimes I call out my x-wife and expect her next to me and glad to see Rob when I realize the mistake.

I had what they call night tremors and believed I was killing people at nights. Rob took many beatings as I lived these dreams! My neurologist said one day, " and he is still with you"! Many nights Rob stayed awake making sure I could breath. For some reason I would stop breathing. It became hard to fold clothes and holding a simple thing like a remote control was a heavy chore.

The day life changed, the day I died will continue on the next blog!

Thursday, September 15, 2011

The Meaningfulness of Live

It was believed that it needed to be in this way one had meaning in life; God, Family, Friends then yourself! Of course we have learned that if one does not LOVE oneself none of the fore-mentioned can happen, so this order a of successful life was flawed! There lays the problem!

Through my life and my generation, one was never told that in order for one to LOVE anyone, they had to love themselves first. I spent my life taking care of my family, wife, children and never once thought of me. It was believed we were always put last instead of first."For god loved the world, so much he gave his son in exchange for many" and so it goes. But God did not give himself as some religions teach! No, he was first and the earth somewhere after, for we do not know what else exists.

I have read many books including the bible and have been privileged to be surrounded by wonderful people and a great man, but unless you look in the mirror and are satisfied with what you see the puzzle will never be finished.

Finish the puzzle find a way to love yourself and happiness will follow! How does one do this in future blogs~

Dr. Q

Friday, September 9, 2011

As you face death, one ask's WHY?

Often people ask what death are you facing? What disease do you have that makes you run this blog? Plainly put we are all dying so it's not surprising one would run a blog like this! However this blog is dedicated to my sister who besides being the epidimy of good is dealing with cancer and that being terminal!

My dad died around his early 40's so I never thought I would last this long! Two of my aunts died an early age so as a child I thought I would never reach my 50's! Well here I am! Yes I do have many challenges ahead since my accident in 2008! Dam that DUI driver. My life changed forever and it's never been the same. Today my mind is working but my legs are a challenge. There is always a part of my body I am dealing with it!

So I look around and read allot when I can and I ask why?

Why don't we learn from past mistakes?

Why don't after, we have spent billions or maybe trillions have a cure for cancer?

Why do children refuse to listen to people who have experienced challenges, their parents or senior's?

Why did we not put into practice "things l;earned from 9/11"?

Why do we have a shrine and a charge dedicated to the "Lady of Milk" in St Augustine?

Why do we insist the creator is a "male"?

Why do we waste billions in government with no accountability?

Why does it take almost 6 years to settle my law suite when I was hit by a DUI driver?

Why do most of the people living in my area stay home and get food stamps?

Why is over the counter drugs, the drug of choice in our area and cocaine and meth popular in the Miami area?

Why do friends hurt each other, if they are friends?

WHY DID WE LOSE OUR FREEDOM ON 9/11 and now are considered guilty at airports instead of innocent?

Why do people say they will stay in touch, when they have no intention of doing so?

Why did it take the manager of the Holiday Inn I recently stayed in 3 days to to contact me when they guarantee you're stay as pleasant or your money back?

So many why's!!!!!!!!

You know from my late 20's to my late 40's I never gave much thought as to why! I was busy managing people, traveling the world providing ideas to improved technology, speaking about quality and implementing ways of doing things better. But now that I look back, most of this was due to "having to do it" verses "wanting to do it". Why? Did we have to experience a collapse of the automotive industry in the 70's to realize the Japanese were putting Quality first in their manufacturing and thereby beating our asses! Did we think the American people were idiots enough to keep buying shitty cars because they were American?

So yes as we age and at times when we are facing death we ask allot of why's! My sister has never asked why since she has been so good, married to one man since age 16, rarely if ever bad mouth anyone, very religious and extremely loving why she out of all of those we know is dealing with terminal cancer.

But as I write this I know why! There is no answer as to why's! There is do or die! We all have an impact directly or indirectly with those we encounter and sometimes there lies the why, the why we will never know!

Dr Q

Monday, August 15, 2011

Talking Helps, Listening Heals!

I woke up this morning with a pain in my lower back that penetrates down my right leg and is so strong that if it wasn’t for the walls I would fall (this is why my surgeon said I should not drive until we know what going on). Ok but that is not the reason for this blog! Lots of people in the world live with worse pain and very difficult situations!

But I find talking helps me! I blog and through blogging it helps me stay in touch with current events and still give me purpose. Maybe my experiences, knowledge and just maybe a small sentence or word through my blogs can help someone as much as it helps me!

You see talking helps! Have you noticed there are group meetings for almost any disease on earth? Small communities that share what they are dealing with and talk it out! The interesting thing is that talking helps, but in these groups there are a dozen or other people sharing their experiences and so LISTENING HEALS!

It is often said that the creator gave you two years and one mouth for a reason. Well the reason is balance but you get the point!

Whether your facing death (we all are) or diagnosed with a terminal disease, or just feeling worthless (the most dangerous of all) talk to someone or those close to you but never forget to LISTEN, fort he talking helps but it's the power of listening and applying that heals!

Dr. Q

Friday, August 5, 2011

I should of died!

A few years ago most of you know I had a major auto accident. It's never been the same. I have been in constant pain ever since! No matter what surgeries, what pills I suffer excruciating pain especially on my neck arms and legs!

This morning it’s my right leg. I blog so I don't think of the pain. I somehow believe I was kept alive for a reason, but what reason! Why did I not die that day? It would have been a perfect ending. I remember very little of the accident, but have suffered ever since. Of course this was made worse by the second auto accident. But it's the first that left me permanently basically paralyzed!

I try very hard to create a garden with Rob's help. I try to walk the dog and at times make it around one block! This is a man who could run, swim, ski, and jump from car to car with my friends (stupid) going 80 miles on a highway.

I don’t know why I did not die that day and I know there are worse people suffering than me. I try very hard not to complain! I do feel I hold Rob back! I can't dance (I loved to dance), I can't go out with him for too long without the pain causing us to either staying in the hotel room or I have to get back.

The head concussion has also left me with memory issues! Lately sometimes I forget who he is (it's scary). The good thing with memory issues is that movies you have seen shows you like are always new to you!

I will keep looking for a reason the creator kept me alive that day and I will stay the course because I am deeply in love with Rob! But at times it would be so easy to just fall asleep and move on! The glory days were so much fun! Nothing is the same when you deal with pain! So for those without pain and a happy life! Enjoy it things can change in a second!

Dr Q

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Marie you live on even after the American flag is gone!

Approximately almost a year ago we moved into this house. We found out that we had a neighbor like no other! Her name was Marie! I had the privileged to get to know her but her drinking buddy was Rob!

As my illness worsens I longer have a desire to drink. Occasionally yes I have a beer or two and hardly any hard liquor. My mom is very happy! To me it's another sign of it's almost time!

Marie said once in her 27 years living here in this neighborhood (she was the first to move here) she never met or had neighbors like us! To this day every time I walk by the house next door I think of those words. Yesterday her family finished selling all her belongings and took the American flag down. She loved that flag!

 I actually got one like hers except in June I changed it to a (as she put it) a colorful flag! Yes the PRIDE flag! She asked so many questions related to why we need a flag, why we need parades etc. etc.

I and Rob loved Marie! I am sorry she is gone, but be assured until the day she dies she resides in us. And after we die she resides on the web forever. Rob and I ended up with a few things of Marie, but what we treasure most is her picture. She had a presence and a smile like Rob's. By the way she like1.5 lts of CC.

Marie I walked by today and noticed the flag is gone! The new buyers move in Oct 1st! But I want you to know that thought the American flag is gone, you never will!

Dr Q

Sunday, July 31, 2011

A time to die, saving a soul-saving the deficit!

The right to die should not be explored but should be something we as a leader in the world lead in instituting. For those who read my blog know that mu dad has been in the hospital and then nursing home rehab after that ordeal. Of course because he went in for minor day surgery it became a major surgery almost causing death. But at an emotional moment my mother decided against better judgement to keep him alive.

My dad has said, WHY, Why did you not let me die! She said she could not live with herself now she has to live with the bad decision. Dada will never be the same. He may need 24x7 care which we can't afford and because some of his thinking ability works he feels he is in a prison and wants to go home, not realizing he can't take care of the basic needs.

Then thee is dealing with Humana, Medicare, the facility and family disagreements. Lets just say an emotional decision has caused havoc in the family and caused the taxpayers money that could of been avoided.

I walk through those corridors and I ask myself, WHY! Some if not most are just breathing! They can;t eat by themselves they have no idea where they are and they are there sometimes for decades awaiting death.

Its sad to keep these people alive and the right to die should be an option for everyone. If it does not become available in my time as an easy way to go i have option two, a gun!

Dr Q

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Religion on the way of common sense.

I have the opportunity (hard to call it that) to assist with my Dad at the nursing home as he goes through rehab for a recent surgery. Whether he ever becomes the man he was is a story in itself! This blog is to define why "the right to die needs to be championed for and the reason people need a living will).

As I walk through the hallways to see my Dad, I can't help but look at bodies that are in beds but that should no longer here. Contrary to religion teaching, a human in a bed who cannot move, think or no longer take care of themselves no longer exist.

Common sense would say a "GOD", would not want humans to end up this way. The right thing to do is give people the right to die or allow them to decide when to die.

Spend a day or two in a nursing home and see for yourself if this would not be the just thing to do. The thought that when "God" is ready he will take them is not rational. As we head into the 22nd century we have moved forward in many ways with technology, but lack in common sense when it comes to leaving the planet.

Dr Q

Monday, July 18, 2011

It's good and some uncertainties

Let’s discuss the good! My sister is doing well and back in Boston with her daughter for the summer. God (I say this lightly for God is a spirit and neither male nor female) only knows that one needs to leave Tampa Bay for the summer. It's purely hell with a little drop of water here and there. Very unlike Miami, where we see rain everyday. I miss Miami so much! Yes, Rob does not like it but it's where I would like to finish my life on earth. Either that or PR near Ron.

That being said, she is doing well with her cancer treatments weekly and who knows she may outlive us all. But there is no cure and weekly treatments take a toll on my sister. I think about her daily, though she may not know!

As for me! I am done with surgery and the cancer has not returned. There are some possible bad news that I will keep everyone updated once and if confirmed! For now Rob and I spend as much time as possible seeing things we want to see this way. We don't know what the future holds, but enjoy where you are and as life moves you along enjoy wherever your planted until you’re finally seeded.

Dr Q

Thursday, June 9, 2011

The End

It seems like yesterday a day would never end
It seems like yesterday that life just began
It seems like yesterday life had no end
But today sickness has kicked in
Yes yesterday your facing what seems like the end
The children don’t call and hurts within
People use you when all you need is a friend
Sometimes you think of the end
Sometimes loneliness is your best friend
You question why you’re here and start to bend
Life seems lost and has moved as fast as the wind
You want to love but it rips and buns like fire within
Life has moved way too fast and you’ve lost some of your best friends
You wonder why you have lived to see the end

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

My funeral: The Do's and Dont's

Don’t wear black, but wear colorful colors, because I was a colorful person
Don't miss me, so get to know me now
Don't regret being left behind, continue doing the good I’ve done
Don't be sad I will miss the sun; it forever will glow in memory
Don't think I will forget you, because you’re unforgettable
Don't travel to me, I will travel to you
Don't worry an era has ended, for one has begun
Don't worry you will miss me, I am not forgettable
It's not a sad day, but a happy one for my energy will be everywhere
Don't think of it as death, but as a passage
Don't send flowers, contribute to a charity
Don't go to your corner and cry, hug and laugh
Don't think you will miss me, for soon you will join me
Don't worry about the cremation, I never liked the cold
Don't worry, it's all planned
My funeral

Dedicated to someone I never knew but think of often, Daniel!
Dr Q

Monday, May 30, 2011

Born with a self destructive button! A will to survive!

I never question the Creators reasons for doing things the way they are. After all those who follow or read my blog, see my appreciation for beauty and creativity in general.

But lately and especially on this Memorial Day I wonder why as we age we don't grow a self destructive button. Yes, something we could push and go to sleep and move on to the next place that absorbs our energy!

Ok those who believe in the bible will say that we were never meant to die and suffering is a result of sin. Ok, I will give them that thought. So when  the creator (not God because its associated as a male and it is neither male or female) forced then out of the garden of Eden he could of made a self destructive button that would grow in time and something you could use to move on!

Hey there are many ways we can leave this earth! Unfortunately a few friends of mine have decided this pattern! But in my 50's there are times I could push such a button! Then I am reminded of why I should not! Well there is My Love Robert, The roses I enjoy looking at and taking pictures of in my garden! There are the drag queens that make me laugh like last night! There is such beauty in both male and female that pleases my sight!

So maybe there is a reason why such button does not exist! Because if it did I or we may have missed everything I just said. And though at times I wish for such a button, I am reminded daily of why that if it existed we are meant to enjoy every moment while here!

Look around and no matter what your suffering and let the beauty of creation move you to appreciate every second you live!

I dedicate this to my sister! She may never read it, but I see her struggle to survive every week with cancer and I have never heard her complain! In this tearful morning I say thanks sis for making sure I don't push that button just yet!

You’re Bro
Dr Q

Saturday, February 26, 2011

A chat with my sister!

The other day after a very verbal emotional weekend discussion, my sister stopped by as we discussed her cancer and compared it to mine. Well I was floored at what my sister said. For over a year I have been lead to believe that my sister had a miracle and that her cancer was in reversal. Mine is no longer detected thought there are always current issues one deals with. Besides we are here to chat about my discussion with my sister.

My sister and I have always been close! Yes there are religious differences and the Gay issue has always been a challenge for her! But I know she loves me and Rob and we leave it at that.

As my sister and I chatted she tells me her cancer has spread to organs and basically all over her body! It's being maintained but there is no reversal! I looked at my sister totally different from that moment on! I will still give her an argument to remind her she is still living, but every time I see her I wonder if it's my last.

My sister loved dressing up as a girl and still does as women. Not having hair is something that bothers her more than losing her breasts to cancer a number of years ago. I write this with tears for I can't imagine life without my sister! I wish we could trade places! She is loving, patient, caring and what I call an angel on earth!

My sister always cares more about others and me than she does about herself. Every Friday she gets treatment to keep another week going and as she told me someday and no-one knows that day, she may be told just enjoy whets left. I honestly can tell you she won't tell us, though we will all know!

My sister will never read this, but in this world of emotions, down deep my sister knows, she is a part of me that can and never will be replaced!

For those lucky to have a sister like mine, treasure them for one day the treasure will be buried and gone!

You’re Bro!

Dr Q

A chat with my sister

Monday, February 21, 2011

A goverment shutdown-You asked for it!

Do you realize when the government shuts down it pays its people back to the day it shut down! So let's see they shut down the government, millions of government workers stay home and go shoe shopping and when the battle is over these workers, who did nothing, get their pay retroactive to that day!

I JUST LOVE GOVERMENT! I supported it for the last 10 years of my career. I needed it to live now being disabled and realizing that my check along with others may not arrive next month angers me. So many areas of government are out of control, that it should shut down and begin brand new with private contracts monitored by government workers who are qualified to monitor.

We are the best democratic nation, but there is little to be liked about how it works just be dealing with Medicaid. It is so out of control, lacking common sense with unqualified staff that one can only get something done properly if escalated to management. It's like the first line of defense should all be fired.

So shut it down and create it from scratch with a profit in mind and not a burden on tax payers. It's an idea, amazes me why this idea is not implemented!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Things are looking good!

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Things are looking good!: "As I say that, I worry! Based on life's experience, every time things look good something comes behind you and knocks you off your feet! Ye..."

Things are looking good!

As I say that, I worry! Based on life's experience, every time things look good something comes behind you and knocks you off your feet!

Yes I am seeing a surgeon and may need additional back surgery! Yes I still carry the terminal disease! But the medication is working and except for some minor things that need to be worked out with my doctors all seems to be going in the right direction.

When one is sick, it feels good to say or write such news. I will have more in coming weeks and the Power of Attorney and Five Wishes are being notarized this week just in case things turn around.

Even if all stays well for a while one should always have all documents ready because life changes in a moment.

Dr. Q

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Do we worry about gossip!

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Do we worry about gossip!: "Let me tell you as we all who are in the numbers game (so many years to live) do not worry about gossip! Gossip is for those who have time ..."

Do we worry about gossip!

Let me tell you as we all who are in the numbers game (so many years to live) do not worry about gossip!

Gossip is for those who have time in their hands....

So we will listen but as fast forget and focus on the life we have left!!!!

Dr Q

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Things could be worse! But HOPE is needed!

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Things could be worse! But HOPE is needed!: "Many times I have heard that if you think life is bad, visit a nursing home or attend a funeral. However individuals who have gone beyond ho..."

Things could be worse! But HOPE is needed!

Many times I have heard that if you think life is bad, visit a nursing home or attend a funeral. However individuals who have gone beyond hope are no longer affected by despair by others and those things can always be worse.

In my short time here on earth I have had 5 friends commit suicide and I myself trying in my teens. I was a very emotional individual and still am. I was lucky having mentors along the way that inspired me and that part of me disappeared. I am forever grateful for those individuals.

You see if you live for the moment and the mindset has no hope there is nothing you can do to stop someone from killing themselves and in the process take others. It seems that even in death individuals want to leave a mark or don't want to go alone!

This is why we all, family members, friends, co-workers, teachers, politicians and on and on have to give people HOPE!

I have my cousin over the other day and he works in a nursing home! I was chatting about all my health issues and at 21 he says, you should see what I work with daily! It helps you appreciate what you have and deal with issues that are not that important.

I thought about what he said! I realized he has HOPE, he has some short term goals and long term goals and though he has faced some challenges, I would not worry about him. When people especially young ones don't have short term or long term goals they tend not o have HOPE!

Thee we need to help and in a positive way provide HOPE so that as a society we do all we can do to avoid what happened in Tucson Arizona!

Dr. Q

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Coming out of hell!

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: Coming out of hell!: "You no doubt have wondered, Like I have that everyone good or bad that has had a near death experience always says that it's wonderful in th..."

Coming out of hell!

You no doubt have wondered, like I have that everyone good or bad that has had a near death experience always says that it's wonderful in the other side.

They mention lights, peace, calm, like a perfect place everyone would want to go to!

I have never hear (but maybe there is some experiences) of someone having a near death experience or for a period losing their heart beat that says my god it was hell on the other side.

This brings the question, is there a hell after all? Everyone having these near death experiences can't all be destined to what we call heaven! Some must and need, based on their life experiences be going to hell. So why don’t we hear “on my god, let me change my life because what I saw, was not where I want to go!

Well it's very simple! The near death or limited/no heart beat put's us into a metal state that we experience what we have lived. There is no so called hell or heaven as we are told for "from dust you came and to dust you will return".

Since my two car accidents I have visions day or night and it's of my past future etc. But I know it's all mental for when and if I die, my ashes will be sitting on a mantel keeping an eye on Rob! And if I need to, I will come out of hell just to remind him I am watching!

Dr Q

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: When death is missing!

Today With Abilio, A View Of Life Accepting Death: When death is missing!: "If you’re a fan of Family Guy you would have seen an episode when death comes knocking at the Griffin's house and gets hurt and Peter has to..."

When death is missing!

If you’re a fan of Family Guy you would have seen an episode when death comes knocking at the Griffin's house and gets hurt and Peter has to take over for a while! It's an interesting episode and I think about. When does death come calling?

There was a 30 year period in my life when no-one died in my family. Some were at their 90's and no-one passed away. I used to tell people this and they would say man you’re lucky; I have lost so and so over the years. I always wondered why not us! One of my aunts died in the early 70' and then no-one until early 2000.

Since then death has been calling frequently with a number gone and some put on notice. I remember being told when I was a young man by a coworker Ed DeSimone that there comes a time that someone dies almost weekly sometimes daily in your life. He has since passed away of Cancer. He was a great mentor and wonderful human being.

So my point is this! Notice those you love, tell so and if your one of the lucky ones that have no deaths for decades, be thankful because you can be assured death will not be missing forever.

Chat soon!

Dr Q